A lot has happened since I last published a blog post. I received my results, got into university, met my boyfriend, etc.
So let’s start with my results – I didn’t quite get the results I was hoping for, but my first choice university still accepted me. However, the university experience wasn’t exactly what I had hoped it would be. Instead of settling in well, I had issues with my flat mates which caused me to have to move into new accommodation. Then I started having issues staying awake in my lectures, causing me to fall behind on my subject. All this, whilst being homesick would be have been bad enough, let alone the fact that I was given little to no support from the university regarding my aspergers and mental health issues. It wasn’t long before my depression started to kick in again, and I was left feeling suicidal and completely isolated. As a result of this, I have now made the decision to change universities and start a new course elsewhere. Although my university experience wasn’t great, it wasn’t all bad – I did make some good friends on my course who I will keep in touch with even though I won’t be continuing at the university. Also, I would assure others not to be put off going to university due to the experiences of others, as everyone has a different experience of university life, so yours could be very different to mine.
On a happier note, I now have a boyfriend, with whom I’ve been dating for almost 5 months. He has become my best friend and I couldn’t be happier, despite having our ups and downs. I actually found that with my issues, Internet dating can actually be quite helpful. You don’t have to worry about being too socially awkward to talk to someone initially as you can get to know them online first, which really helped me personally.
For the first time in a while, I feel like I’m starting to make my own choices, without worrying what other people will say or think, and I would encourage others to do the same. There’s no point in worrying what others think, just do what makes you happy.
Have a great new year everyone!